My Big Boy

I almost cried tonight! I put my big boy in his crib tonight knowing he wasn't fully asleep, but I was starving for some dinner so I thought I'd give it a try. A few minutes later I heard some murmuring. I went to my video monitor to check on him and he had turned himself around in his bed and was now on his belly, head up looking around his dark room. He wasn't fussing so I thought I'd just leave him while I ate and deal with it later. A few minutes later I went back to check the monitor and he was sound asleep on his belly! No crying, no fussing, no rocking! I couldn't believe it. My big boy had put himself to sleep without me! Part of me wanted to jump up and down because this was a huge break-through! But the other part of me got kind of sad realizing that my little guy is growing up so fast.

He has been such a joy over the last month or two. In his first few months, I had often wondered what I got myself into. I also wondered if I was cut out to stay home with him. I was exhausted and he had my number. But these last few weeks have made up for it all!!! I ADORE this little boy. He is so spirited and full of life. His latest few crazy tricks have been putting his face under in the bathtub, doing backflips out of my lap (yes, I'm serious), and rolling all over the room. He thinks he is a big boy now and insists on standing all the time. I wish he wasn't so short because I know he would LOVE a walker. He wears me out almost every day but I honestly wouldn't have it any other way.

I am so thankful for this little boy. God constantly reminds me of his story every time I say his name. Zach: the Lord remembers. God remembered us in giving us Zach. He remembered His promise that He made us after we lost our first pregnancy. I always prayed that God would use Zach in amazing ways. And tonight I was reminded of a verse that God pointed us too when I was pregnant with Zach. Habakkuk 1:5 "Look at the nations and watch- and be utterly amazed. For I am going to do something in your days that you would not believe, even if you were told." Can't wait to see what God's going to do with him!