I've been working on trying to get Zach's room finished lately. I hope to have pictures posted on here soon! The idea for one of the projects I have recently finished came from a good friend of mine, Beth. In both of her kids' rooms she has a frame that has their names with the meaning as well as a Bible verse that represents that name. Zach's name is really special to us and we wanted to do something like that to remember the story. I thought I would share the story on here as well!
After our miscarriage in October of last year, Scott and I both knew God was telling us that He was going to send us another child. He did this through several separate avenues; however, it was all finalized through some scripture. Psalms 105:42 says "For he remembered his holy promise given to his servant Abraham." Throughout our trial with our first pregnancy, God had revealed the story of Abraham and his son Isaac to us. He walked us through this journey and brought us to the point where we had to lay our child at the altar and give him up to the Lord. We later found out he had literally taken him to heaven on that day. His name was to be Isaac. In the week following the miscarriage, God led me to that Psalm and we knew he was telling us that he was to give us another child. We didn't know how, when, or in what context, but rested in the peace of knowing he had promised us this.
Several months later, Scott and I decided we "might" be ready to have another child but were very guarded. We wanted God to show us what He meant in his promise, and not us. I found out a week or two later, much to my surprise and disbelief, that we were pregnant already! Scott was on call at work at the time so I grabbed a card and scribbled something inside and slipped a piece of paper that had Psalm 105:42 on it. I headed to the hospital to give it to him, but he got off early and met me at home instead. When he read it, he knew! He kept saying "Are you serious?" We were amazed at what God was doing, because this was definitely not our timing, but His!
The next day, I sat at my computer on one of those baby names sites. I typed in things like "promise" and "God-given" and found very little. Then, I happened upon the name Zachary. The description said "The Lord has remembered". I stopped. That was to be our child's name if he was a boy. I just knew it and needed no further explanation!
Anyone who knows me well, knows that I need journeys to solidify things. God took me on that journey over the next few months. Scott and I toyed with girl names, even to the point where God said "You will name her this...quit running." When I FINALLY, legitimately agreed, we found out it was a boy! It was almost as if God said, "Listen to me. Trust me. Show me your faith. (But it's gonna be a boy!)" :)
So Zachary was named by God. His name represents a spiritual journey that God has taken us on over the past year. This little guy was promised to us, long before we ever knew. He wouldn't be here if we hadn't willingly given up Isaac last October. I know God has big plans for this little guy. I pray that Scott and I will be parents that help him to know God and how special He has already been in his little life. I also pray that we will also willingly give Zach to God like we did Isaac. I have a feeling it will be even harder than it was the first time.
I am 31 weeks 5 days in this picture! This picture became much "squattier" when I rotated it so I really don't think I look THAT squatty! Zach is growing bigger everyday and I know getting off my feet was the best thing for him. He has continued to be so active and have such a little personality. I can't WAIT to meet him! Scott and I started our childbirth classes last night. This is something I think everyone should do at least once. I can't say that I really learned anything last night but we laughed a lot and the "relaxation and breathing" part at the end was wonderful! But even better, it was nice to have a date out with Scott. We are so thankful for life right now. It's been an amazing journey over the past year. I have spent this week reflecting over a lot of what we have gone through as a couple since this time last year. Although I wouldn't wish a miscarriage on anybody, I can say now that our marriage is so much stronger, so much deeper, and so much sweeter than ever before. God is so real in our lives and our marriage and for that I am blessed! I've learned this week about journeys that God takes you on. Although they can be painful, looking back is so sweet. And I honestly wouldn't change a thing. I feel I am blessed for having been on that journey. And what a sweet Thanksgiving we are about to have, with our little blessing from above!
