Today was my "last" day to work. Scott and I decided it made more sense for me to just throw in the towel now given I wasn't working enough to even count. I don't like to say that it was my last day. I prefer to think of it as a change in job description, as I am still going to type reports from home for now!
I had a hard time driving home today adjusting to all the changes. It's one thing for life to change to prepare for something else. It's completely another when you realize the transition won't occur for another 3 months! The reality of that began to sink in as I drove home. I guess it's in these times when you truly discover who you are down deep.
How amazing God is because this is exactly what I have been studying about lately in my quiet time! I read yesterday the story about the rich young ruler who comes to Jesus and asks "What must I do to have eternal life?" Jesus's response was to sell all of your possessions and come follow Him. But sadly, as you know, the rich young ruler leaves, weaping, because he knows he can't do this. A familiar, but strange story; however, so full of truth. What must we be stripped of to find our true identity in Christ? What can we not give up?
Right now, I feel like I am being stripped of my identity. I am being stripped of the things that have defined me over the past few years...my job, my activity, my hobbies. I pray that in this time it will draw me closer to him. That I will find my true identity and sense of purpose in Christ and who He has called me to be.
4 years ago
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You will be amazed how you will redefine yourself over the next 6 months or so. And while life will change, it's so much sweeter, you won't even care. And remember, being a mother doesn't mean that you give up everything. It may just mean doing it in a different way or not as often. Motherhood is hard, but the rewards are great!
You're right, you will never be the same - life will get even more busy than you can imagine, decisions will be more difficult to make and the years will fly by much faster than you wish. And yet, your life will be so much sweeter and more fullfilling than you could have ever imagined. Motherhood is TOUGH - but you'll be so much better for it. You just wait - and you tell that Zach to hang in there and wait a while longer, too!!
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